I am showing a grin but deep inside there are butterflies in my stomach.
I dunno what has gotten into me to sign up for a 25K run when in fact I have not even tried 21K. I dunno what to expect. i am scared to death that I might not be able to finish the race. I am scared to death that I might not be able to make it to the 3 hour-45 min cut off.
Omar said these are just newbie jitters, the desire to run long distances that soon. Thank God he understands and was able to give me a few practice tips - errr... a complete practice schedule for the next 3 weeks. I dunno if these practices will make me better - maybe it will, I am not confident, to be honest. I am hoping I can make it... I am praying I can make it.
161 will be an unforgettable number. This will forever be a number that will represent my 'stupidity' and 'excitement' to run a long distance race. I do not compete against others - I am competing against myself and I am trying to get rid of these butterflies in my stomach.
I have completed 2 days of the practice schedule that Omar gave me. I still do not feel any better over this dilemma. Only God knows what will happen on race day.
If ever I will complete this race, I only wish somebody will be there to cheer for me. I just wish there will be somebody who will celebrate with me, and will understand the feeling of completing a race.
If ever I fail, I just wish somebody will be there to make me stronger. I wish someone will tell me that I can do better in my next race. I wish somebody will tell me it is OK.
Sigh. anxiety... di ko to gusto!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhu ....